Im always on youtube listening to music. I came across this young lady and was stunned. She covers songs using a piano or guitar and i must say she does it better than some of the artist. check her out !!
Friday, 26 February 2010
Monday, 15 February 2010
This used to be my SHIT
In 1996 a group named The Cardigans came out with a song called LoveFool. I was only six but, this song was my shit. I swear i remember always singing it. The other day I came across it on youtube and I had an immediate flashback. It was crazy because I knew every single word and I haven't heard this song in over thirteen years. Listen to it below !
Outside Looking In
Outside Looking In
So many things I want to tell you
So many things I feel you need to know
Its only becasue I love you, I dont let my fears for you show
You know he's wrong for you
So why dont you let him go?
I know your in love but are sure he is too?
I just want to protect your feelings because they belong to me too
When you cry, I cry
When you hurt, I hurt
But love is blind so I hope one day you see
that the chances of you ever being his girl are slim
But what do I know? I'm just on the outside looking in
By me Angela
Love Just Hold On
* inspired by his mistakes by usher
'`*
boy you have to understand i dont confine to anyone
because anyone who ever said that "they'll be here" ; left
i want to love you the way you love me but its hard for you to understand why i cant
no one understands what it takes to be me,
a girl with a cold heart,
scarred by his mistakes,
left with a broken heart
& still looking for the pieces,
a girl who goes day by day hoping she will change
& turn back into the warm hearted girl she used to be,
its ashame i didnt meet you before because your the right guy for me
the type you only read about in dem stories with fairies,
my mind is ready & willing to give you my all
but my heart is protecting itself from the thought of being hurt again & going thru so much agony,
im scared to love you & i'm also scared to lose you
but i know if i dont let my guard down soon you will leave me
im sorry if im being selfish & making you pay for his mistakes
but in time i'll pay you back with my love
don't think i'm taking your love & kindness for granted
just understand where im coming from
so just give me a moment to pull myself together
& to have one last cry to wipe away all my pain & sadness
before i enjoy the endless love you'll be giving me
& from then i'll be ready to love you
but for now love just hold on ...
'`*
boy you have to understand i dont confine to anyone
because anyone who ever said that "they'll be here" ; left
i want to love you the way you love me but its hard for you to understand why i cant
no one understands what it takes to be me,
a girl with a cold heart,
scarred by his mistakes,
left with a broken heart
& still looking for the pieces,
a girl who goes day by day hoping she will change
& turn back into the warm hearted girl she used to be,
its ashame i didnt meet you before because your the right guy for me
the type you only read about in dem stories with fairies,
my mind is ready & willing to give you my all
but my heart is protecting itself from the thought of being hurt again & going thru so much agony,
im scared to love you & i'm also scared to lose you
but i know if i dont let my guard down soon you will leave me
im sorry if im being selfish & making you pay for his mistakes
but in time i'll pay you back with my love
don't think i'm taking your love & kindness for granted
just understand where im coming from
so just give me a moment to pull myself together
& to have one last cry to wipe away all my pain & sadness
before i enjoy the endless love you'll be giving me
& from then i'll be ready to love you
but for now love just hold on ...
- By me Angela
LOVE
Everyone has their own definition of love. I am a STRONG believer in love. I have it tattooed on my ring finger left hand; its that real. I myself only been in love once. But before i experienced that feeling i wrote a poem on what i believe love is & posted it in my facebook notes. I got some good feedback from my facebook friends so i would like to share it with you.
i wrote about 93% & the rest goes to an anonymous writer
i wrote about 93% & the rest goes to an anonymous writer
'`*
its not that i need it or that i strive for it
its just something i never experienced
something that i got almost close too
but it wasnt real
so quickly it was gone
i witnessed it & it looked amazing
love is what they call it
the best thing in the world some say,
now i love people & i love things
but loving people & things are very different from being in love
i once thought i was in love with someone but i was wrong
never have i been in love
i wish i had but my time will come when i find that one i know it will be great
just like in the movies
love is a tender passionate affection for another,
a warm personal attatchment,
& even for some sexual attachment for an another,
where the person is not only your lover but your bestfriend.
your shoulder to cry on when your sad,
your ears to listen too when you have good or bad news or just a story to tell,
love is when you found that special someone*
someone who you share wonderful and hard times with
someone who isnt there to catch you when you fall but to be there once you slip
some who accepts your flaws & loves you for who you are inside & out
someone who only wants the best for you,
someone who will give you the world if you asked for it,
someone who knows everything about you,
someone who can know something is wrong even if your covering it up with a smile,
someone who not only shares their deepest secrets with you but
someone who allows you into their heart trusting that you wont ever hurt it
but always keep it beating because without you their heart wont function,
someone who can look deep into your eyes and give you the same butterflies you felt when you both first kissed,
somewho who no matter how long you both been together can still keep the flame burning as if you two just met,
someone who can give you one kiss & all of a sudden everything in the world seems so right,
someone who can call you when its 30 below outside & just by saying those three words " i LOVE you" you get a instant feeling of warmness inside,
someone who when they see your tears they want to change everything in the world so it doesnt hurt you anymore, someone who wont die for you but someone who live for you
*someone who notices whatever they where to the world, they become everything to you & when you look them in the eyes traveling to the depths of their souls & you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of their very heart we love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice it is a thing not of the mind but of the heart, a feeling only felt♥
One of my favorites
I love poetry, all different types. One day while surfing youtube I came across this young lady Semhar youtube channel & fell in love with her poetry. Her style reminds me of my own & her use of words are amazing. Below I put one of her poems called Limitless Love (my favorite). Be sure to subscribe to her youtube channel.
Wednesday, 10 February 2010
To Every Girl ...
Its only takes one bad boyfriend
to realize that you deserve so much more
& dont make your next pay for the last ones mistakes
because you may be guarding your heart from something great
Lucky
Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat collaborated together to make an amazing song called Lucky. I'm such a huge fan of both of them. I heard this song a while back & I listen to it almost everyday. It kind of reminds me of someone ;)..just a little bit.
* Click here to listen to the song, enjoy
* Click here to listen to the song, enjoy
Phenomenal
Phenomenal
[fi-nom-uh-nl]
highly extraordinary or prodigious; exceptional
I love the word Phenomenal. Well clearly lol. I believe it describes me. Every one has their own perceptions of themselves. I believed this word describes me because of the poem Phenomenal Women by Maya Angelou. She has to be one of THEE best poets. If you know her work you know shes indescribable.I post the poem Phenomenal Women below. I hope you enjoy this poem as much as I do every time I read it.
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing of my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing of my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them,
They say they still can't see.
I say
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them,
They say they still can't see.
I say
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
The palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
The palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
by Maya Angelou
* click on her name to be directed to her website.
Love Is You
Love is a word that means so much to me. I think more than anyone would ever know. Its my favorite word and has a lot of meanings to me. The song Love Is You by Chrisette Michele is my all-time favorite song. How the words are put together and the metaphors placed into the song are just perfect. I cant wait until I can dedicate this song to someone. Below I put the lyrics because this song is more of a poem to me. Just reading the words makes me get butterflies. I hope you enjoy it.
* click on the song title to hear the song
* click on the song title to hear the song
What's your definition of it?
How does it make you feel?
Tell me what you say that truly makes it real
Kings and Queens, Philosophers have tried so hard to find
Tell me what it means to you dear, never mind
Love is kind when the world is cold
Love stays strong when the fight gets old
Love's a shoulder to lean on
Love is you
Love's like the water when the well runs dry
Quench my thirst, keep me alive
Just need one sip baby
Love is you
Is it possible, there is a kiss that's so divine
Or am I just a fool, is it all in my mind?
Is there something chemical
A scientist might say
Well love must be a drug
To make me feel this way
Cause love's my permission to be who I am
No inhibitions cause you understand
Freedom to breathe oh baby
Love is you
Love's like a kiss when the sun goes down
Holds me tight when no one's around
Love's what I want to hold on to
Love is you
Love is kind, it makes me stronger
I don't have to look no longer
You're the one I cling to
Love is you
When the chips are down
Love will stick around
I'm so glad I found
Love is you
As much as I've tried to clarify
Love's quite simple, he's just my guy
Perfect definition
Love is you
How does it make you feel?
Tell me what you say that truly makes it real
Kings and Queens, Philosophers have tried so hard to find
Tell me what it means to you dear, never mind
Love is kind when the world is cold
Love stays strong when the fight gets old
Love's a shoulder to lean on
Love is you
Love's like the water when the well runs dry
Quench my thirst, keep me alive
Just need one sip baby
Love is you
Is it possible, there is a kiss that's so divine
Or am I just a fool, is it all in my mind?
Is there something chemical
A scientist might say
Well love must be a drug
To make me feel this way
Cause love's my permission to be who I am
No inhibitions cause you understand
Freedom to breathe oh baby
Love is you
Love's like a kiss when the sun goes down
Holds me tight when no one's around
Love's what I want to hold on to
Love is you
Love is kind, it makes me stronger
I don't have to look no longer
You're the one I cling to
Love is you
When the chips are down
Love will stick around
I'm so glad I found
Love is you
As much as I've tried to clarify
Love's quite simple, he's just my guy
Perfect definition
Love is you
my left & my right hand
My high school career was basically me being in a relationship. So my only close friend was my ex-boyfriend. But that ended my senior year & I became close friends with two girls, Jaleesa & Taina. I always been friends with them but never had a close friendship. Taina and I had bio class together in tenth grade, which was super fun because I was such a bitch to the teacher. We also had forensics together our senior year & hung out during free periods which made our friendship closer. Jaleesa was just the pretty girl I said hi to in the hallways because she was friends with my ex-boyfriend. She invited me to her super sweet sixteen which was an amazing party, but still never became close friends until senior year. We became close over drama but it was all worth it because she is an amazing person. Through out the years my friendship with Jaleesa & Taina had ups & downs mainly because I moved to queens & the distance messed with our friendship. But like true friends we managed to work it out. They deal with my randomness & weirdness & most importantly are always their for me. I love these girls as if they were my sisters. I always know I can have a good time when I'm with them. There is so much I can say about these girls but to sum it up their my best friends & my sisters.
jaleesa to the left taina to the right
looking like twins
jaleesa & i
lmao i love this picture of taina & i
=]
throwback
*friendship is like peeing your pants, everyone sees it but only you feel the warmth
Tuesday, 9 February 2010
Sweet Little Lies
So last Thursday my best friend Jaleesa & I stood for two & a half hours in the cold to get wrist bands so we can meet the beautiful Lauren Conrad. She was doing a book signing for her new novel Sweet Little Lies at Barnes & Noble, Carle Place in Long Island, NY. Sweet Little Lies is actually a part two of her first book L.A Candy. We were number 25 & 26 in line ( we went hard ! lol ). She is a total inspiration and im glad I met her. She is an extremely nice young lady & I hope she continues to do what she does and i wish her the best in her career even though she doesnt need it :)
* click on her name follow her twitter & click on her books to buy her books !!
check out the pics I took =]
=]
about to meet her =]
her signing my books =]
jaleesa talking to her
my signed books
Monday, 8 February 2010
Poetry
Whats your definition? The dictionary definition is- the art of rhythmical composition, written or spoken, for exciting pleasure by beautiful, imaginative, or elevated thoughts. Pretty nice definition right? Everyone has their own definition. Well at least every poet does. I enjoy reading poems from the cute love ones & to the hard ones you have to read over & over to understand it. Poetry is music without beats. Poetry is something that I go to as an outlet ...its my DRUG. I've been writing poetry since I was fifteen. As I grew older I noticed that I was only able to write when I got inspired. Most of my inspirations come from my personal experiences,songs, my surroundings,or just my thoughts on a topic. I'm not easily inspired but when I am, I'm on my blackberry typing a poem. Most my poetry is more of a talking or acting style so one of these days I'll post a video of me reciting one of my poems but for now I'll just type them up. So I when I do hope you enjoy. ( but I'm super nervous because I hate the sound of my voice =/ lol)
Quick Quote
So I want to write children books as a side hobby. I found an amazing Institute that can help me with that. They sent me information about their institution and with the brochure they sent me this quote. "The most unfortunate thing happens to a person who fears failure is that he limits himself by becoming afraid to try anything new." GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE. I love this quote it speaks to me because I'm such a procrastinator but I'm only a procrastinator because I'm afraid of failure & rejection, so I always put things off. I have this quote hung up in my bedroom wall as a reminder everyday to give myself a chance. :)
Sunday, 7 February 2010
The Bitch We Call Life
Ever have that feeling when you feel like "damn why me" or the famous "FML" (fuck my life). I know I had & still do have from time to time. Back in March of 2009 I decided to write a letter to my life explain how I felt about her. I shared it on my facebook notes & got really good feed back. I hope you all enjoy !
Dear Life,
i known you for 18 years
& come august we would be friends for 19
so i just want to say thank you for that blessing
& i hope we have many many many more years to come
but im writing you this letter because lately you've been giving me trouble
& there's no need for me to say it because you & i already know what the problems are
for 16 of my 18 years you weren't so bad to me
we had our ups & downs but like many things i didn't understand you that much at 16
but by the time i was 17|18 you turned on me you stupid fucking bitch
& excuse my language i really don't mean it but im angry with you
i sometimes wonder why you put me threw stuff
is it because i hardly thought of you?
if so you have to understand i was young i wasnt thinking about you i was just living you
living you up to the fullest & trying to have fun
i wasn't planning on taking you serious until i was like 20 or 21
you haven't taken my youth but you got me thinking like a female that's way older then me
im not your average 18 year old female
shoot the way i grew up i don't even look like one
the thoughts that run threw my head are because of what you put me threw
no one knows my problems except & me you
im also writing you this letter because your the one i love the most in this world
i cherish you i take care of you & even though i used to not think of you so much
i do now so stop treating me as if i neglect you
because at this time in my life all i do is think of you
i think about how you made me into the beautiful young woman i am today
i think about how you brung me happiness
& brung people into my life that love me for me
& took out the ones who were useless & had motives to hurt me
i think about how you hurt me & sometimes made me feel weak
i think about times when i thought all i had was you
& it was just me you against the world
i think about the times when you had me laying alone awake at night with sorrow filling my eyes
i think about the times for you making me not strong enough to cry & release my pain threw tears
i think about the times that you made me put on a disguise of being that strong girl that doesn't feel pain i think about the times when im left with no shoulder to lean on
i think about the times when you made me everyone else soldier & left me in an army alone
i think about all the times you made me bottle all my hurt inside
i think about the times when i wanted a hero; a hero for myself to listen & help me but instead you put up a guard & you didn't allow me to express myself
i think about all the times when you knew i wanted a simple hello or a nice gesture from a special someone so bad & you left me alone just with you
why are you so selfish?
sometimes its like you don't understand your always gonna be here so don't worry
i won't put anyone before you because at the end of the day all i have is you
i also think about the hardships & pain & tears & every tuff & hard time you put me threw
& now that i think of it
i honestly from the bottom of my heart thank you
im now realizing you did this for a good reason
you made me into the woman i am today
from my looks to my personality
to the closeness i have with my family
to the friends i keep & to the ones i threw away
& to the trust i have in others to the trust i have in myself
they way i love myself & to the way that i love others
everything you put me threw was for a reason & im happy you did that
i now understand your motives & your intentions
& i apologize for calling you a bitch even though sometimes you are
but you are for all the right reasons
so thank you life
i love the bitch in you because it brings out the best in me
-- love always angela " angie " philitas
p.s- the love i have for you compares to no other so always remember our bittersweet relationship keeps me going ily -- you the fucking best :-*
Dear Life,
i known you for 18 years
& come august we would be friends for 19
so i just want to say thank you for that blessing
& i hope we have many many many more years to come
but im writing you this letter because lately you've been giving me trouble
& there's no need for me to say it because you & i already know what the problems are
for 16 of my 18 years you weren't so bad to me
we had our ups & downs but like many things i didn't understand you that much at 16
but by the time i was 17|18 you turned on me you stupid fucking bitch
& excuse my language i really don't mean it but im angry with you
i sometimes wonder why you put me threw stuff
is it because i hardly thought of you?
if so you have to understand i was young i wasnt thinking about you i was just living you
living you up to the fullest & trying to have fun
i wasn't planning on taking you serious until i was like 20 or 21
you haven't taken my youth but you got me thinking like a female that's way older then me
im not your average 18 year old female
shoot the way i grew up i don't even look like one
the thoughts that run threw my head are because of what you put me threw
no one knows my problems except & me you
im also writing you this letter because your the one i love the most in this world
i cherish you i take care of you & even though i used to not think of you so much
i do now so stop treating me as if i neglect you
because at this time in my life all i do is think of you
i think about how you made me into the beautiful young woman i am today
i think about how you brung me happiness
& brung people into my life that love me for me
& took out the ones who were useless & had motives to hurt me
i think about how you hurt me & sometimes made me feel weak
i think about times when i thought all i had was you
& it was just me you against the world
i think about the times when you had me laying alone awake at night with sorrow filling my eyes
i think about the times for you making me not strong enough to cry & release my pain threw tears
i think about the times that you made me put on a disguise of being that strong girl that doesn't feel pain i think about the times when im left with no shoulder to lean on
i think about the times when you made me everyone else soldier & left me in an army alone
i think about all the times you made me bottle all my hurt inside
i think about the times when i wanted a hero; a hero for myself to listen & help me but instead you put up a guard & you didn't allow me to express myself
i think about all the times when you knew i wanted a simple hello or a nice gesture from a special someone so bad & you left me alone just with you
why are you so selfish?
sometimes its like you don't understand your always gonna be here so don't worry
i won't put anyone before you because at the end of the day all i have is you
i also think about the hardships & pain & tears & every tuff & hard time you put me threw
& now that i think of it
i honestly from the bottom of my heart thank you
im now realizing you did this for a good reason
you made me into the woman i am today
from my looks to my personality
to the closeness i have with my family
to the friends i keep & to the ones i threw away
& to the trust i have in others to the trust i have in myself
they way i love myself & to the way that i love others
everything you put me threw was for a reason & im happy you did that
i now understand your motives & your intentions
& i apologize for calling you a bitch even though sometimes you are
but you are for all the right reasons
so thank you life
i love the bitch in you because it brings out the best in me
-- love always angela " angie " philitas
p.s- the love i have for you compares to no other so always remember our bittersweet relationship keeps me going ily -- you the fucking best :-*
Allow me to introduce myself
My name is Angela. I'm nineteen years young. I created this blog because I wanted to be able to show my personality to people who don't know me & pre-judge me as something that I'm not. Also because i want to start my dream as a model and i want to share my journey with the world...or at least whoever comes to my blog. Enjoy !
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