I already have my news years resolution(s) in my head. I’m actually starting one now. The other ones could wait. I already did a post a few weeks ago on one. Which was me exploring my city more (New York City). I live here and don’t take advantage. I feel like some people who just moved here explored NYC more and I’ve being living here for 20 years (my whole life). Don’t get me wrong I know my way around. Tell me where you need to go and I know which train will take you there…or I can just google it ;). But anyway I want to go to more museums, restaurants & etc. I also want to stop saying I’m going to do something and I don’t do that. I can’t even count how many times I said I was going to do something and I didn’t. Its ridiculous. I can’t talk the talk if I don’t walk the walk. I don’t know where I get that from because my family are the type of people that say when their going to do something, they do it. My other resolution was to read a book once a month. I love reading and I’m very picky when choosing to read a book. My sister can read a book in one day if she wanted. I always buy books and she always finishes reading them before me. I’m actually starting that now by reading Lauren Conrad’s book. Very typical but she is an inspiring person. But my usual genre for books is mystery, action, drama, love, fictional, biographies and science fiction, so if anyone has recommendations let me know :)

who am i to say

Bed babe

I love having you press against my skin

I love it when I'm on my back 

I love it even more on my belly

The way you hug my body so good

You keep me nice and warm 

If I can share you with the world I would

after  a long hard day your with me at night until the morning

never can i ever call you boring

I used to be the only one you been with but i shared you with a few

what can i say you were too good to be true

the others loved you and wanted more

I said no he's my mi amor 

I cant wait to lay my head on your soft touch 

what more can i say i love my BED i cant get enough 

Hey Blogspot, I haven't come on this since August. I'm mostly on tumblr.com at mylifeasangela.tumblr.com I have more followers on that and I feel like I get more feedback from that website rather than this one. I don't mind that I don't though. I'm going to start back up posting my poetry and quotes, so for those who do visit my blog I hope you enjoy.

even though i hate the word destiny ....

  “Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”
  

i love this quote  !

Current

I neglect my blog way tooo much. But who ever does come I'll let you guys know what I've been up too. I'm turning 20 in a few weeks (yikes). I'm currently taking summer classes to make up for my missed semester. I'm also looking for photographers, stylist, & makeup artists to help me update my modeling portfolio. (IF ANY ONE KNOWS PEOPLE IN THESE FIELDS EMAIL ME AT APHILITAS@GMAIL.COM) I want to be signed to a modeling agency so bad! Just so I can make a change and live out my DREAM. The fashion industry is so closed minded. Even though there are slowing coming around its not happening fast enough. Anyone who looks at me clearly knows i'm not plus sized but according to the fashion industry i am! And that's crazyy ! But i do want a change it will be amazing to see different races of all sizes and colors to grace the covers of top fashion magazines. Instead of super skinny white girls. Those women are beautiful also don't get me wrong but a change is in need. I hope one day i can say "i was on the cover of vogue". But until then I'm working my butt off, its hard because I'm trying to balance out school because i do want to be a journalist and i also have my own personal problems.But I'm keeping my head up and trying my best and taking one day at a time so that my dreams do come true. I WILL BE A SUPER ROLE MODEL. Just wait and see but until then watch me grow. I will be updating this blog more often but for now follow me on twitter at  PHENOMENAL_ANG  and follow my tumblr at MY LIFE AS ANGELA


THANK YOU !!

PS: I have so many poems to put up here, just no time but soon enough more of my writing will be up...stay tuned !

Three Simple Rules of life

1. If you do not go after what you want, you will never have it.

2. If you do not ask, then the answer will always be no.
3. If you do not step forward you will always be in the same place.

Kind of girl

The kind of girl who loves poems and music

wine and sleeping
loves to give kisses and hugs
doesn’t care about what anyone thinks
sometimes dreams of being famous but mostly about being ultimately happy
doesn’t care for logos 
who goes for days without speaking to anyone

because she restores herself when shes alone

loves to eat
could live under the stars by the sea
who only cares about warm summer nights and steamy days
who is humble and honest
who dreams of being a wise woman
cares about the ones shes loves the most
cares about the world she lives in and the air she breathes
who would not waste her time with meaningless conversations
listens to classical music and opera and randomly dances in public
the kind of girl that when she loves she loves hard

the kind of girl that forgives but never forgets

who wishes she lived in the clouds

who thinks outside the box

shes a great daughter, sister, cousin, friend, lover

most importantly shes the kind sent from up above

shes [Angel]a 

* I took some on this from an anonymous writer and made it my own

Random Cuteness

A man out there is meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He’ll brush the hair out of your eyes. Send you flowers when you least expect it. He’ll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it. He’ll call to say goodnight or just cause he is missing you. He’ll look in your eyes and tell you, you’re the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you’ll believe it.

                                                                       -Nicholas Sparks

20 things to do in your 20's

The fact that I'm turning 20 in two months really just hit me.I can remember when I turned thirteen and was able to say I'm a TEENAGER. I'm now coming to that point in life to say goodbye to my teenage years. I'm never the type so say life is a joke. But I can tell you that i never took it super serious. Everyone who knows me, knows I'm a joke-ster and all I want to do is have fun.I have my serious moments but I'm mostly a free spirit. Now that I'm coming to that age where I think about stuff like how might have kids in the next 5 years, or be married, have a career, leave my parents home. When i think about this I have a bitter sweet feeling, like damn no more bullshitting, no more slacking, etc. This life is what you make it. I plan to make my life something to talk about and remember. I was searching the web and reading articles (as always) and i came across an article that I really liked called "20 things to do in your 20's". I already do some of these things but I did learn some new stuff from it. Check it out !! 

20 things to do in your 20s !

Deep Questions

Ever love some one so much you pretend to be happy? 

Hide when you're sad?

Apologize for things you know aren't wrong about?

Feel like a weak idiot for not ending it?

You just love that person so much....you'd rather suffer than be without them? 

Because the good time you do have, are the best times ever, and you're so happy when your happy, but cant forget the bad lurking, waiting to create another fight? 

 

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

You don't have to go to church to be religious or believe in god. I'm a proud catholic and this may sound bad to some people, but I dont like going to church. I rather pray in the comfort of my own home by myself. I'm extremely religious, even the people closest to me wouldnt know that. My favorite bible verse is 1 corinthians 13:4-8, I would LOVE to get this verse tattooed on me but its way to long but I have an idea of how to shorten it without removing anything...stay tuned for that tattoo. Below is there verse, I strongly believe in every single word written....

 Love is patient, love is kind

It does not envy, it does not boast

its is not proud it is not self-seeking

it is not easily angered 

it keeps no record of wrongs

love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth

it always protects always trust always hopes always preserves

 love never fails

 but where there are prophecies, they will cease;where there are tongues, they will be stilled;

where there is knowledge, it will pass away

Symptoms of ME

highly allergic to bullshit

in with like my boyfriend

sick of ignorance

tired of school

hate spit

attached to my phone

addicted to pop tarts

in love with love

obsessed with a passion to model

open minded to music

considerate of others

extremely funny

joker

taller then most 

haitian all the way 

summer baby

proud leo 

daughter of jean and marguerite 

sister of kevin and malorie 

friend to many

lover to one 

i'm everything and more

i'm lots of fun
by me angela

I believe

I believe in purple. 

I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. 

I believe in kissing, kissing a lot.

I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong.

 I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. 

I believe in love.

I believe all guys aren't dogs.

I believe in peace.

I believe in me.

I believe in happiness

I believe in god.

I believe in life.

I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.

The Resume

My blood cousin Joe also known as Joe-be came out with a mixtape called The Resume. Joe always rapped but hes a funny dude so no one took him seriously. I remembered when he first told my sister and I he was coming out with a mixtape, we laughed because hes Joe and is always joking. But then we went on his Youtube Channel and heard his song "Aint asking for much" and were amazed. Joe is not only a funny dude he's a smart talented young man & I'm proud he's my cousin. Its nice to watch a person grow and start their journey to their dream. I cant wait to watch his growth. Love you cuz. One day I'll be saying "hey thats my cousin on tv" haha.

To support Joe-Be and his rap career...

Add him on facebook at ---->  Joseph JoeBe Leveille

Subscribe to his Youtube Channel ---> http://www.youtube.com/user/JoeBe1115

Check out his blog -----> http://joebesworld.tumblr.com/

& most importantly DOWNLOAD his mixtape at ----> The Resume

* The support is much appreciated :) 

:|

Dying inside

but outside shes looking fearless

- tupac

tumblr

i made a tumblr to post photos from my phone, to basically to show people
my life as ANGELA; enjoy

http://mylifeasangela.tumblr.com/

& follow me on twitter 

                                                             http://twitter.com/angoflnl

LOVE THIS !

Question

  if the whole world followed you, 

would you be pleased with where you took it? 

-Neale Donald Walsch

My theme song

Essence It girl

Last week my best friend and I went to a casting call for Essence Magazine. The winner gets a cover of Essence Magazine in September 2010 and a one year contract with Elite Model Management. I did horrible at this casting. They asked me only 3 questions and I was literally in there for 30 seconds, while other girls where in there for 5+ minutes=/. My personality didn't show at all, which sucks since I've been told I have a great one. I know I just looked like a tall shy girl to them but I'm so much more. But I'm keeping my head held high, one day I'll be laughing at this but for now I'm on to the next one :).

Below is the video from the casting; I'm in it a few times look hard. ( I have a gray sweater on.)

keeping this in mind

"Don't ever give up on something/someone

that you cant go a full day without thinking about."

life

"One life to live

No sequel"

question.....

to my future husband.....who ever he is ..... "if nothing last forever; will you be my nothing ?"

too true.

you never know how strong you are 

until being strong is the only choice you have.

twitter

http://twitter.com/phenomenal_ang

Museum of Sex

The other day I went to the Museum of Sex, and it was pretty interesting. I don't think I've seen so many dicks and boobs in my life. Check out some pictures I took. Enjoy :)

....

"NO expectations NO disappointments"

i often miss this little girl whos dreams had no barriers 

who believed in a world where anything is possible 

with a heart that was full and unbroken

me as a child :)

As cold as you

I found this poem in my diary, it was dated December 3rd, 2007 at 2:23 am.I was 17 years young. It was actually a ripped out page I planned on throwing out. But I found it crumpled up in the middle of my diary, clearly I was pissed off haha. Enjoy :)

As Cold As You

  I put up walls and painted them in a shade of grey

because never again will I get my heart broken that way

time has passed and life went on 

never again will I sing a sad song

I blame you for making me this way

 I'm just mad because now
that men after you have to pay

pay the price of dating a girl whose heart is as cold as ice 

who puts up guards and never fights

never fights for what she wants because shes scared 

scared of love, scared of commitment 

you're the one who made me like this 

and karma is a bitch

one day this will all come back to you 

and I hope one day someone makes your heart feel blue

because your the reason why I am as cold as you

by me Angela

To everyone going through something

Everything will be okay in the end

if its not okay, its not the end

- unknown

Remember

When you look at a person

any person
remember that everyone has a story 
evryone has gone through something that has changed them 
- unknown

I always tell my family/friends a broken heart heels with time & then i found this

Love this

Great spirits have often encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.

Til it happens to you

love her  & this song <3

My horoscope

Its crazy how horoscopes can really relate to a person. I read mine today & I swear i felt like this when I woke up....pretty scary. I put it below. By the way I'm a leo....raooww ! 

Saturday, Mar 13th, 2010 -- You may feel as if you are getting mixed messages from someone you love, but you are probably a bit confused all on your own. It's easy to be so idealistic today that you become discouraged when anything falls short of perfection. But, of course, it's not likely that others can live up to your high expectations. You'll be happier if you can be more flexible and refrain from sharing all your judgments now


I read my horoscope daily at www.tarot.com you should read yours too ! 

Lil Wayne

So before Lil Wanye went to jail he made a twitter.I absolutely positively loved his tweets. Mainly because most of them had something to do with love and if you read my blog you would know LOVE is my best friend and I LOVE her :). Below are my favorite tweets from him. Enjoy.

...nothing but love.

life is a movie,let love play its role.

love hurts.love heals.love hard.

born to love,so i'll die without.

Love is a beautiful lie which most prefer when the truth hurts.

love is in the air...inhale exhale

Lu©k happens wen preparation meets opportunity...love happens wen I meet u.

Stop..............in the name of love

trying to spend my love wisely

more time to love

love is the key,open up.

i love you.

welkome to my department store of love,where 1 size fits all.

for i am only a lovebird...."please don't shoot me down"

what is to love,must endure pain

klumsy me,i've fallen for you.

#follow your love

love is a circle....stay in it or around it.......just dont end up out of shape.

love,i am your shadow.

love is a road without signs yet we still drive bekuz we kan only imagine whats ahead.

love.

 

love is a virtue.

if love is everywhere,i'll never end up in the middle of nowhere.

aint it funny how love finds you in your darkest place...?

if its held in your heart,u kant let go.

* click here to follow lil wayne on twitter 

Guard your heart before all else, for it determines the course of you life. Proverbs 4:23

The Climb

I know a lot of people who don't like this song. But I feel like they don't listen to the words just cause its Miley Cyrus. But LISTEN TO THE WORDS! Its a very inspirational song. Enjoy !

My journey

Two weeks ago I went to a very popular modeling agency called Wilhelmina Models. I went in for an open call, but I got denied. "I wasn't what what they where looking for at the time". I was really upset because that's the modeling agency that I reallllllllly wanted to get signed to because their very open minded about different body types. But this week I plan to go to FORD Models and Elite Model Management so wish me luck !! I'm 5'10 and photogenic I must not let my talent go to waste !

Worth

I wrote this poem on my 18th birthday in a car to Virgina Beach on my cell phone. I recently found it in my email and decided to post this. I call this more of a list rather than a poem only because its really long but enjoy ....

Worth

What am I looking for in a Man?

Strong affectionate caring & kind

Those are just a few qualities in what I want to call
mine

He can’t talk to the talk if he can’t walk it

He has to be a man of his words & never back down

Be that person that gets rid of all my frowns

He has to be able to please me physically mentally
& spiritually

Physically not only in the bedroom but in public knowing
when to hold my hand & when not to

Knowing when to hug & kiss me when the time is
just right

A man who in front of his boys can give me a kiss
goodbye & not feel embarrassed by it

He has knows how to physically respect me as a woman
& to never lay hand on me the wrong way & touch me gently every single
day

I need a man who can be with me not only for my physical
appearance but because of my mind, personality, & mentality

All the type of ways I think

I want him to know what I’m thinking as if he were me

Be able to pick something out at a store in a way I
would

I don’t want our minds to be alike but I want him to have
an understanding of what I think

I want this man to be able to look at me & know if
something’s wrong

To know even if I’m smiling I’m covering up something

To know that as much as I seem strong & heartless

That I do have a heart & not to hurt it

To know that I believe in love

& if he’s not ready for that to leave before I get
hurt

He has to know that I put walls up & hide my
feelings

He has to know how to get behind those walls & get
to know the side of me no one knows

He has to want to do this because he has to know I won’t
force him

Spiritually this man has to connect with me &
connect with God

He has to know I don’t like to attend church but I do
pray

& that I do thank god for my blessings everyday

He doesn’t has to believe in my God but believe in
some type of God or have a hint of spirituality

Only so I know there isn’t a demon dwelling deep
inside of him

This man has to be everything & more

Not be an accessory but to compliment me

Be there for me & love me unconditionally

Be the man I’ve been waiting for

Be able to shut my eyes to all other men

Be able to take my breath away & always have me
head over heels

To always be spontaneous with his actions

He can’t make me think he loves me

He has to make me have to know

He has to understand that I got my own

& I don’t need him & if worse comes to worse

My heart is strong enough to leave him

He has to have his own

Education, money & things in that nature

Just so I know that we’re on the same path

He has to have the same drive as me

If not better

He has to strive to happy

& on his days where he isn’t in the best mindset

He has to know that he can come to me with anything

To know that I’m his rock & he’s mine

& whatever problem he has it also becomes mine

He has to understand when I need space & when I
want closure

He has to know everything about me

He has allow me into his heart knowing I won’t break
it

He has to know that I’m here to stay as long as he
treats me right

He has to have a friendship with my friends & a
bond with my family

He has to be everything times more

A man like this I can’t find in some store

A man like this I can’t find at all

Because a man like this has to find me

& when he does he will recognize half of himself
in me

He’s a man that can help himself & knows when he
sees me that by being with me he is finally is complete

Our connection will be so strong words wont even being
to describe it

A love & a bond like this only god will be able to
prescribe it

He will know when he’s sees me we should’ve been
together since birth

You may think I’m asking for a lot

But it’s only because I only ask for what I’m worth

By Me...Angela

Funny stuff

Love this

"Someday & One-day AREN'T days of the week... remember that"

Sade

Shes just so beautiful & talented

<3 her 

 

Too True

When you're dreaming with a broken heart

the waking up is the hardest part-John Mayer

* click here to hear song

BIttersweet Symphony

Dear Summer....

Everyone misses you. You wouldn't believe how much your talked about. Your pretty much a big deal, especially in New York because that bitch Winter is so harsh. But you guys never met because of Fall and Spring. But shes no one special to meet anyway. I miss you dearly. Even when I'm upset or mad I can just go outside and feel the heat you bring and it automatically brings me joy. God knew what he was doing when he created you Summer. Your beautiful and warm. You bring everything to life. You make me want to be around you for life. I'm happy you go away though because if you didn't I wouldn't love you so much. Like they say absence makes the heart grow founder. Well I'm just writing you this letter just to say see you soon Summer.

- xoxo Angie

if my heart was a home

Filled with everything you ever dreamed of 

happiness, laughter,excitment & more

everytime you pay a visit, you'd never be alone

if my heart was a house you'd be home
By me...Angie 

Overall

In life 

 We get grades

We will gets A', B's, C's D's & even F's 

but when the day comes when we have to average out all our grades 

What will yours be?

Just make sure your overall average is worth showing off 

- Angela

LoveStoned

LoveStoned

A state of mind where you can only think about one person -the ultimate state of love. Your mind is just shut down, and all you can think about is him/her.

Simple Autograph

Everybody wants you

but they just cant have you
Everyone looks for you 

but some have a hard time finding you

some people have you

some people had you

some people don't believe

all some do is dream

I'm a dreamer & a believer 

but lately you've got me questioning 

your demeanor

what I'm seeing & feeling 

feels so unreal

I know what you are 

because I felt you before 

but now I'm not even a believer anymore

Love am I a fool to believe in you?

or is this one of your games?

if so I'm so ashamed 

because I'm your number one fan 

& all i wanted you was to sign my heart

just a simple autograph...
By Me ...Angela 

Pure Talent

Im always on youtube listening to music. I came across this young lady and was stunned. She covers songs using a piano or guitar and i must say she does it better than some of the artist. check her out !!

This used to be my SHIT

In 1996 a group named The Cardigans came out with a song called LoveFool. I was only six but, this song was my shit. I swear i remember always singing it. The other day I came across it on youtube and I had an immediate flashback. It was crazy because I knew every single word and I haven't heard this song in over thirteen years. Listen to it below !

Outside Looking In

Outside Looking In 

So many things I want to tell you

So many things I feel you need to know 

Its only becasue I love you, I dont let my fears for you show 

You know he's wrong for you 

So why dont you let him go?

I know your in love but are sure he is too?

I just want to protect your feelings because they belong to me too

When you cry, I cry

When you hurt, I hurt

But love is blind so I hope one day you see 

that the chances of you ever being his girl are slim

But what do I know? I'm just on the outside looking in

By me Angela

Love Just Hold On

* inspired by his mistakes by usher


'`*
boy you have to understand i dont confine to anyone
because anyone who ever said that "they'll be here" ; left
i want to love you the way you love me but its hard for you to understand why i cant
no one understands what it takes to be me,
a girl with a cold heart,
scarred by his mistakes,
left with a broken heart
& still looking for the pieces,
a girl who goes day by day hoping she will change
& turn back into the warm hearted girl she used to be,
its ashame i didnt meet you before because your the right guy for me
the type you only read about in dem stories with fairies,
my mind is ready & willing to give you my all
but my heart is protecting itself from the thought of being hurt again & going thru so much agony,
im scared to love you & i'm also scared to lose you
but i know if i dont let my guard down soon you will leave me
im sorry if im being selfish & making you pay for his mistakes
but in time i'll pay you back with my love
don't think i'm taking your love & kindness for granted
just understand where im coming from
so just give me a moment to pull myself together
& to have one last cry to wipe away all my pain & sadness
before i enjoy the endless love you'll be giving me
& from then i'll be ready to love you
  but for now love just hold on ...

- By me Angela 

LOVE

Everyone has their own definition of love. I am a STRONG believer in love. I have it tattooed on my ring finger left hand; its that real. I myself only been in love once. But before i experienced that feeling i wrote a poem on what i believe love is & posted it in my facebook notes. I got some good feedback from my facebook friends so i would like to share it with you.


i wrote about 93% & the rest goes to an anonymous writer

'`*

its not that i need it or that i strive for it

its just something i never experienced

something that i got almost close too

but it wasnt real

so quickly it was gone

i witnessed it & it looked amazing

love is what they call it

the best thing in the world some say,

now i love people & i love things

but loving people & things are very different from being in love

i once thought i was in love with someone but i was wrong

never have i been in love

i wish i had but my time will come when i find that one i know it will be great

just like in the movies

love is a tender passionate affection for another,

a warm personal attatchment,

& even for some sexual attachment for an another,

where the person is not only your lover but your bestfriend.

your shoulder to cry on when your sad,

your ears to listen too when you have good or bad news or just a story to tell,

love is when you found that special someone*

someone who you share wonderful and hard times with

someone who isnt there to catch you when you fall but to be there once you slip

some who accepts your flaws & loves you for who you are inside & out

someone who only wants the best for you,

someone who will give you the world if you asked for it,

someone who knows everything about you,

someone who can know something is wrong even if your covering it up with a smile,

someone who not only shares their deepest secrets with you but

someone who allows you into their heart trusting that you wont ever hurt it

but always keep it beating because without you their heart wont function,

someone who can look deep into your eyes and give you the same butterflies you felt when you both first kissed,

somewho who no matter how long you both been together can still keep the flame burning as if you two just met,

someone who can give you one kiss & all of a sudden everything in the world seems so right,

someone who can call you when its 30 below outside & just by saying those three words " i LOVE you" you get a instant feeling of warmness inside,

someone who when they see your tears they want to change everything in the world so it doesnt hurt you anymore, someone who wont die for you but someone who live for you

*someone who notices whatever they where to the world, they become everything to you & when you look them in the eyes traveling to the depths of their souls & you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of their very heart we love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice it is a thing not of the mind but of the heart, a feeling only felt♥

One of my favorites

I love poetry, all different types. One day while surfing youtube I came across this young lady Semhar youtube channel & fell in love with her poetry. Her style reminds me of my own & her use of words are amazing. Below I put one of her poems called Limitless Love (my favorite). Be sure to subscribe to her youtube channel.

Metaphor

"Love is like a shadow

one can only catch it by falling into it"

-Unknown

To Every Girl ...

Its only takes one bad boyfriend 

to realize that you deserve so much more

& dont make your next pay for the last ones mistakes

because you may be guarding your heart from something great

-Angela

Lucky

Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat collaborated together to make an amazing song called Lucky. I'm such a huge fan of both of them. I heard this song a while back & I listen to it almost everyday. It kind of reminds me of someone ;)..just a little bit.

* Click here to listen to the song, enjoy 

Remember....

"To get to the rainbow

you have to put up with the rain"

Phenomenal

Phenomenal 

[fi-nom-uh-nl]

highly extraordinary or prodigious; exceptional

I love the word Phenomenal. Well clearly lol. I believe it describes me. Every one has their own perceptions of themselves. I believed this word describes me because of the poem Phenomenal Women by Maya Angelou. She has to be one of THEE best poets. If you know her work you know shes indescribable.I post the poem Phenomenal Women below. I hope you enjoy this poem as much as I do every time I read it.

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing of my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them,
They say they still can't see.
I say
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
The palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me. 

 by Maya Angelou

* click on her name to be directed to her website. 

Love Is You

Love is a word that means so much to me. I think more than anyone would ever know. Its my favorite word and has a lot of meanings to me. The song Love Is You by Chrisette Michele is my all-time favorite song. How the words are put together and the metaphors placed into the song are just perfect. I cant wait until I can dedicate this song to someone. Below I put the lyrics because this song is more of a poem to me. Just reading the words makes me get butterflies. I hope you enjoy it.

* click on the song title to hear the song

Love Is You

What's your definition of it?
How does it make you feel?
Tell me what you say that truly makes it real
Kings and Queens, Philosophers have tried so hard to find
Tell me what it means to you dear, never mind
Love is kind when the world is cold
Love stays strong when the fight gets old
Love's a shoulder to lean on
Love is you
Love's like the water when the well runs dry
Quench my thirst, keep me alive
Just need one sip baby
Love is you
Is it possible, there is a kiss that's so divine
Or am I just a fool, is it all in my mind?
Is there something chemical
A scientist might say
Well love must be a drug
To make me feel this way
Cause love's my permission to be who I am
No inhibitions cause you understand
Freedom to breathe oh baby
Love is you
Love's like a kiss when the sun goes down
Holds me tight when no one's around
Love's what I want to hold on to
Love is you
Love is kind, it makes me stronger
I don't have to look no longer
You're the one I cling to
Love is you
When the chips are down
Love will stick around
I'm so glad I found
Love is you
As much as I've tried to clarify
Love's quite simple, he's just my guy
Perfect definition
Love is you

my left & my right hand

My high school career was basically me being in a relationship. So my only close friend was my ex-boyfriend. But that ended my senior year & I became close friends with two girls, Jaleesa & Taina. I always been friends with them but never had a close friendship. Taina and I had bio class together in tenth grade, which was super fun because I was such a bitch to the teacher. We also had forensics together our senior year & hung out during free periods which made our friendship closer. Jaleesa was just the pretty girl I said hi to in the hallways because she was friends with my ex-boyfriend. She invited me to her super sweet sixteen which was an amazing party, but still never became close friends until senior year. We became close over drama but it was all worth it because she is an amazing person. Through out the years my friendship with Jaleesa & Taina had ups & downs mainly because I moved to queens & the distance messed with our friendship. But like true friends we managed to work it out. They deal with my randomness & weirdness & most importantly are always their for me. I love these girls as if they were my sisters. I always know I can have a good time when I'm with them. There is so much I can say about these girls but to sum it up their my best friends & my sisters.

 

jaleesa to the left taina to the right 

looking like twins

 

jaleesa & i 

  

lmao i love this picture of taina & i 

 

=]

  

throwback

*friendship is like peeing your pants, everyone sees it but only you feel the warmth